Wednesday, 12 May 2010

Fat Camp

I have lost many a friend to the cult of Weightwatchers.

People seem to join and immediately turn into incredibly anal bores who delight in telling you how many points are in that piece of cake you’re about to enjoy. Whenever I think of WW I think of a friend who joined and turned up for a night at the cinema with a little freezer bag containing some penny sweets. She was ridiculously excited because she’d saved up her points to allow herself this treat. She talked about it some more but I couldn’t hear her over the handfuls of popcorn I was shovelling into my mouth.

I really do not want to become that person.

And so I haven’t told a lot of people that I’m doing it.

I don’t handle pressure very well, as the recent family drama I went through highlights. If I knew that people knew I was on the ol’ WW I would start to feel them looking at me, looking to see if I was losing weight, looking to see what I was troughing, wondering why I didn’t look like Kate Moss in a month. Most likely all in my head I understand but such is the life of someone consumed with paranoia.

I’m hoping the secret thing will work twofold – I can attempt to lose weight almost pressure-free and I won’t become a WW bore because I can’t give the game away by telling them how many points are in that digestive they’re about to dunk in their tea.

So I hope you feel privileged, knowing all about it.

Yesterday was my first day and it was with quite a bit of fear that I approached the scales. I don’t have scales at home so I can’t weigh myself but I had an inkling. But I had an inkling in the way that you think something’s going to be a certain way but there’s a part of you that secretly hopes it’ll be entirely different.

My inkling was right. The figure was official and was noted down in my little leaflet. It was like someone had taken a huge stamp and BOOM made it official. No escape for me now. I have to be committed, I can’t have a few days of being good and then kid myself that I can have 2 weeks of being bad as a reward, I have to be permanently good because I know that judgement day is only a week away.

God.

I’ve had fun, looking through my little book which tells me the points value of a few common things and I have a little Pointsfinder which is a grid which will allow me to work out the Points value of certain foods based on calories and saturated fat.

I think there’s going to be a certain element of annoyance as I get used to what things have how many points in them and there’ll have to be a certain amount of planning that goes on where meals are concerned.

But. For now. I feel positive.

Until next Tuesday...

15 comments:

The Curious Cat said...

ah good luck hun! Prob best not to talk too much about it - it can be annoying a little I know and it piles on more pressure! Thanks for sharing with us though! :) If it works for you, let me know....maybe I will need to consider it after this cookery course... going to be a shock not to eat so much next week I think! xxx

The Curious Cat said...

ah good luck hun! Prob best not to talk too much about it - it can be annoying a little I know and it piles on more pressure! Thanks for sharing with us though! :) If it works for you, let me know....maybe I will need to consider it after this cookery course... going to be a shock not to eat so much next week I think! xxx

Amanda said...

Good luck. I started to diet and excersize this year. 5 months in and I'm annoyed and want to eat an entire pizza by myself. I too dispise those people who have to ruin the yummy food I'm about to eat by telling me how fat it will make my ass. I know you can do it!

Petit Filoux said...

Ah that sounds like way too much hassle to me!! But good luck to you, hope it works out! And remember, it's not just about what you put in your mouth, it's about how much exercise you do as well - listen to me, giving advice and all, I should listen to it myself! But in the meantime, I'm going to site myself down and do some more crochet :-)

Maria♥ said...

I've done WW a few times before and it's worked each and every time but you can become obsessed with points if your not careful. I am currently doing WW again and I have days when I fall off the wagon but trick is to get right back on track the next day. Good luck, you can do this.

Maria
x

Doris said...

Good luck! I did WW a few years back & it definitely works, just requires A LOT of will-power & motivation. I'm sure you will be fine. xxx

sallyrose45 said...

According to my weight obsessed friend (who now looks a bit like skeletor) 'it's all about portion size'...

Hmm...

Ana said...

I did the same thing when I was on WW. Only a couple of people knew - I just didn't want the pressure. And I didn't bother with portion size so long as the points added up, which mainly translated into lots of veg stir fries with a bit of fish - if the veg is 'free' why eat like a bird? It worked too, but I was pretty fed up with broccoli by the time I stopped! I'm back on it again (started on Monday) so we'll see what happens this time. Sometimes it's easy and other times really hard, so good luck to you!

Taz said...

When I was losing my weight I found that people wanted to feed me more. I felt like they didn't want me to stop being their fat friend, like I made them feel better about themselves being their token chubster. Mind you I am also the token black sheep, giant, outsider, quirky one...

You're going to do great hon, just remember it's all about portion control and never EVER tell yourself you can't have something. A little bit of something is better than craving and craving then throwing it all in and eating a huge amount of it. ;)

Em said...

Good luck!!
My advice is stop worrying (if indeed you are) about your weight and it will come off much easier than if you're stressing about it and don't get down hearted if you don't lose loads at once...apparently a big weight loss after week one is pretty common then it tends to even out to about a pound or two a week if I remember rightly.
Em xx

Jill said...

Scales are the work of the devil - I never want to see them sitting on the floor in any bathroom of mine. They're only good for measuring ingredients and should be kept in kitchen cupboards only.

I'd probably die if I saw how heavy I actually was.

Best of luck with it all - don't put too much pressure on yourself and I'm sure the occassional 'Galaxy Caramel' won't do any harm.

Kelly said...

Good luck! Good Idea not to tell anyone! Pressure free is what it's all about!!!

Sue said...

Been there done that lol! I applaud you for making a go of it. I've bought myself the new ww's shopping guide (off ebay)with the idea that I might give it another go. It DOES work if you stick to your blasted points. I just working out points in home cooked food such an almighty drag. Even simple things seem unecessarily complicated -witness, 3 figs and 3 prunes for breakfast. Look them up in the little book, no not in the fruit section as you might think but in the 'cooking ingredients'. OK, found figs-half a point each,now the prunes, 1 point is 50g. Gnash teeth and swear, have to weigh 3 prunes. Lose the will to live.

Sorry I didn't mean to be negative but WWs does seem gered towards people who want to eat everything out of a packet, it just doesn't cater for someone who makes their own bread.

It does work though, and I think you are wise to keep quiet about it. Best of luck

Sue x

mooncalf said...

Best of luck! You strike me as steely-willed - I bet you can do it :)

Diane said...

Good Luck - I think its a good idea to keep it secret, however if you do lose lots of weight, your mother will think you are ill!! xxxxx